Wondering


They say I’m mixed-up.
        Who did it?
My mother – my father?
        Who did it?
My role is confusing,
        it seems men I’m choosing.
What can I say,
        I ’m gay!

My father was cold.
        He did it!
Away – too much work.
        He did it!
No male identification,
        no paternal obligation.
Don’t get too near,
        I ’m queer!

My mother was protective.
        She did it!
Too bored – too binding.
        She did it!
Emotions weren’t growing,
        mentality just showing.
Give me a tag,
        I’m a fag!

My interests are tender.
        That did it!
My art – my music?
        That did it!
These pursuits are taboo,
        which could be a clue
Just as you feared,
        I’m weird!

Someday they will know
        what did it.
My genes – the environment?
        What did it!
We seek liberation
        from unjust discrimination.
See, it’s too late
        to be straight!